i think i have a guardian angel... seriously.

i'm not a believer, not at all, but there were a few occasions that makes me believe that there is someone or something watching me over my shoulder. i'm not talking about just a small2 thing, it's about a real big trouble, for which i escaped from being in it.

just today only, my car cannot be started. i tried and tried a few times, there was no sound of the engine can be started at all. totally death. i haven't change my car battery for almost 4 years! it's as long as i purchased the car. i called my brother and my cousins, both can't help me out. i'm in cyberjaya at that time. i parked in front of all those who's taking busses and among them is someone i despised the most! and she was kind of looking at me at distant. i was doomed. i'm not good at asking for help anyway. for almost half an hour, i just sit in my car and hoping for a miracle to come. and suddenly, i tried to start the car again, as of nothing happens, it started. i was so relieved and drove away.

secondly, it happened when i still stayed at my old house. it's a terrace house, which all the houses quite near to each other. location wise, it's kind of where rich people lived, and crime happens most of the times. security was tight but not enough. one night, when i have fallen deeply in my sleep. so deep that not a sound would wakes me up. but somehow, on that soundless night, i suddenly woke up and stared straight at my window. and i saw someone standing there and looking straight at me! i was so furious, i didn't think what might happen at all, i just marched straight to him and curses. he tried to open up the window grill, for which was not locked but i think i might shaken him up a bit by shouting with my eyes wide open and tried to grab him as if i have all the mighty power in me. then, he ran away. until then, i realized, what a stupid mistake i made. i could've been killed. from that day onward, i asked my cousin, is to stay with me until i rent another place.

thirdly, it's when i did my graveyard shift. on my way back home, i was so sleepy that i couldn't concentrate on the road. there was this moment for which i think, i might have fallen asleep and my car kind of getting the other way round. it was like someone waken me up and my car was about to crash by the road side. the weird thing is, there was no other car around. if there is, i could've been involved in an accident.

there was also a few other occasions that happening for which it strengthen the fact that i have a guardian angel. previously, i thought of it just a plain luck coming my way. but now, i do believe.

for my guardian angel, whoever you are.... thank you.

now, i'm officially 27 years of living. what a number. hopefully i'm wiser as much as i'm older. i worked graveyard on my birthday. i just never wants to celebrate it, nor being reminded of it. i just think birthdays is not something to celebrate, it's something to be mourned. you know, it's something like "OMG!!! i'm getting old!!" kind of thing. well, this year, i celebrated it twice.

the first one was with jack (same bday with me), leo and marcus. we have thought of making just potluck at jacks'. but then, cancelled and we just went to TGIF in pavilion. the second celebration was at the office. it was actually for the three of us, thana, me & aishah. we all born in october. it was all planned by my TM.

thanks you so much for all the birthday wishes.

about my MBA, i'm deferring the project paper. i was way too "malas" to do it. my own supervisor don't even remember me (never met him to discussed). i was about to withdraw as he didn't allow me to differ. luckily i got the innocent face of mine, he eventually agreed, well, kena marah la.

my sydney trip is on 2nd. as today is my last off day before departure, i did everything that need to be done. i changed my mobile to post-paid, exchange notes to AUD and i bought 2 pairs of levi's (not exactly in the listing), but i think i would need it :)

i need to continue with my project paper. if not sure kena marah lagi. aiii.. wish me luck.

we are kind of menggila in the office due to FB. everyone has an fb acc. walaweiii. & my own FB is currently "unavailable". i keep on being blocked. i don't know why. sometimes, i have "0" friends. & i couldn't post picture sometimes. it's sucks!

it was nice having a good time like this. :)

the best NEWS ever!! the management approved on "facebook" usage in the office! i love working here! we starting to fully utilized the benefits on the first day it was announced. even the head of HR gives a few do's & don'ts while facebooking. hilarious!

on 18th, went to 2 open houses. for deepavali & raya. from thana to fadilah.

thanks :)

then, last night we did a mini-reunion with my ex-high school mates.

kerjanye mengumpat sampai pagi.

lost in parking bay at 4am. arrived home at 5am. slept & woke up at 8am. walaweiii.

yesterday i was exhausted, and still am.

a LOT of us was born in october. so, we planned to have a big bday bash aka jue's bachelorette party on the 25th. and i have my own bday bash with jack on 24th. huhu, a lot of parties coming up. :)

yesterday, we did a pre-bday bash where sin yee bought cake for jue & fara bday. including mine. hehe.

i was on 4pm shift and finished at 12.15am. after work, i went to meet wel & louise at zouk. clubbing for a while and at 4am, sleepover with her at renaissance hotel.



today itself, we went to meet her tenant. there's some kind of big case going on between them. i'm too tired to tell. need to snooze off.

"Nurul sweetheart, you have the power to change people's minds. If you've had a crush on someone who has been resistant to your charms, you may want to approach them again."

do i need to?

my plan to finish off my thesis has been delayed, yet again. i was out & about with jack, leo & marcus. the plan was just to hang out at starbuck the whole day. we did, but thereafter we watched movie & i did a little shop'ing, yet again. sigh~

my first taste of kimchi. it's maggie mee to be exact.

my fav spot to did my "shop till i drop" is zara. i don't know why, it's so ME. well, i bought a few tops. 6 to be exact. sigh~.. there goes my $$$, yet again.

for our second team outing (in 1 and 1/2 year), we planned to have some kind of "kelab pencinta alam" program. it's kind of soo old school but we had fun. and a LOT of it. we convoyed with 4 cars and arrived around noon. the first pittstop was deerland. it's has a lot of deer and a few other animals. it's not like in the zoo type, where you can only stare from out of the cage, here, you can even touch them! i dared myself to touch a snake as well as bear. it's fun. haha

the 2nd stop was elephant sanctuary. i was surprised that you can enter FOC! you can ride as well as feed them and take a bath with them. so cute.

lastly, we has a blast picnic at chemang waterfall. it's been a fun saturday. :)

if its meant to be, its meant to be..

I knew I loved you from the start. You caught my eye but you broke my heart

I'm convincing myself, yes I'll find someone new. I won't be alone and I won't be with you. You are waiting for me to crawl back to your side. But no, not this time, I'm keeping my pride. So goodbye forever, I'll be on my way. Its gonna take time, but I'll be ok.

This time its over, I'm keeping my heart, I'm gonna be strong, and not fall apart. It'll get better, I'll no longer cry. In a couple of weeks, I won't want to die. I won't want to go back, I'll be able to sleep. It won't hurt so bad, and I won't feel so deep

I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall too fast, because whenever I fall in love, it just never seems to last.

I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy. I'm going to laugh so you don't see me cry. I'm going to let go in style, and even if it kills me I'm going to smile.

it's end of mid autumn festival. last night was my first celebration :p it was fun. we did some kind of pot luck @ marcus and light up lanterns. the main course, laksa sarawak courtesy from jack. then Baked Terriyaki Chicken Salad Wrap, from marcus (that's what he called it :p), mine & leo was all the snacks and mooncakes.

deepavali to go. :)

my plan to confront that someone has been draining down the drain. my messages remains unreplied. why are men so damn complicated? "us" became more complicated than before. seem like he's avoiding me, yet again. felt like i wasn't good enough.. am i? why did i ever agreed to meet him!? why did i did what i did?? sigh~

i'm supposed to cut off all the possible way for him to contact me! ever again!

i did that before though. but still, whenever he call me, i would melt away. i was too scared to cut him out totally. apart of me still want to hang on. hopeless hope.