i'm supposed to be on CB tomorrow. but wilfred asked me to swap to 9 and given the 10th as my OFF day. there gosh my dream to be off tomorrow. manila trip is coming up. can't wait!! :p

i heard rumors flowing around today. almost surreal. and to have it on someone i knew and someone i quite trust, is the upmost frustrating thing happened. i don't want to believe, but it's believable enough. i don't really believe in rumors until there's an exact proof of that particular thing happened. but on the same time, i can't just say it's not happening.

the rumors was about someone, doing something for which can put him as low as any soul. the greatest sin in humanity, according to 'the kite runner" and according to me as well. as a friend, i want to ask, but afraid to do so. 

i used to trust him. giving him $ whenever he needed my help. the last $ i gave, the value is quite high. i asked a few times from him to pay, but none was received. i hope, the rumors wasn't true, as i'll never trust him again, in a lifetime. 

two shots of coffee and i'll be alive till dawn....

it's 2.24 am. i need my sleep!!! stupid coffee.

this, is REALLY in a good condition

as usual, i woke up a bit late, on purposed! i have no other reason to wake up early. no more motivation to go through the day. sigh :(  drove to cyber and just realized the clock in my car is 5 mins late! how come la? my sense of timing is always 5 mins early. another solid reason that i'm depressed. after work, i'm thinking of cleaning my room, which is in the state of ****. you don't want to know! but, instead of doing that, i lie down on my bed, turned on my laptop & tv, and done nothing. heaven & hell collide! i don't even know what played on tv. wasting the electricity. i should've start on energy consumption. as part of my "save the world" campaign. but still, i have plenty of plastic in my room, with 3/4% world's tree.

surfed everything about philippines and H1N1. gosh. i really doesn't want to cancel it! hopefully the other wouldn't. if not, it'll be such a waste. i'll leave my cleaning for next wednesday, if i'm not being CB. ahaks. nite.

work at 9am today. too many ciq nowadays, and it's making me sick. i have about 100++ calls on saturday! i never get 100 calls on saturday. too many people are resigning and headcounts are declining.  i'm thinking of it as well, but i couldn't at the time being. i have planned all my incoming trips to nowhere. 

after work, bought some food from a kopitiam outlet. the nyonya fried rice is awesome. then, watched transformer with jack. stupido, i bought a hotdog, and currently thinking either i want to eat em or throw it away. i always buy food which in the end, ended up in the dustbin. tomorrow  i'll be working at 9 as well. it's sunday i know. well, my working hour is abnormal, as i am. so, off me.

i fall in love with Optimus Prime. My Heroooo

August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009

may you rest in peace. love you always.

2009 is most likely to be the "unluckiest" year for me. ever! there's a few event for which considered very much as unfortunate. i became much more withdrawn from crowd. i lost trust towards people. i have every reasons to not mending a broken relationship. i lost my direction. i have a nightmare trip which caused me to cancelled halfway, without having any refund!. and was about to probably cancel the incoming one due to the virus which threaten everyone. am i depressed? 

and all i can say is.....i officially HATE my life.  

i'm out of my mind. i have things i need to do, crucially, yet i just let it slip from my mind. without the thought of consequences. and now, it seem to take effect. i haven't register for my thesis, i haven't have the proposal!! i need to have a supervisor, yet i haven't approach any!

what's happening to me?! i used to be a nerd. i used to go to the library, finished my homework on time, and very much organized! i used to be the BEST student in class!! 

oh gosh! i'm dead. i want to be the old me!!!!

why am i getting myself yet another blog? i don't know. probably because most people have it, and why shouldn't i, right? or just because i love to write and spill every single beans in my head. my other unknown hobby. this one is considered as my 100th blog. which the other "blogs" i have either deleted or it became stagnant, that i could no longer login, or eventually forgotten. hopefully, i stick with this one. 

finger crossed.