i'm not feeling well. last night alone, i was vomiting like mad until there's nothing to be vomited. i don't know why. i was thinking of taking mc, but i will be on duty today. sigh~

i'm like a snake. changing my skin. :)

back in KL. my flight was at 6am this morning & i hate myself for it. i hate waking up earlier than others. arrived in KL around 8am.
well, the internet seem strange today, or maybe it's google?. firstly, when i entered blogger.com, it direct me into other's blogger account (to dashboard) which as if i have login using other's account or someone used my laptop previously to login. someone i don't know who. i can see everything. below is what i print screen. and that person is so not me.

this is considered a breach of privacy! what if my account can be seen by others? worst case scenario, what if my bank account can be access by others? 

when i entered facebook, almost the same thing happened. but not auto-login. it's weird to see others' email addresses in the login detail. as far as i'm concern, i'm the only one who used this laptop & no one else. 

none of these person is someone i knew.

so weird........

was out & about with my cousin sue & sarah. beraya in kuching. 

the above symbol is called Yin and Yang, which is used to describe how polar or seemingly contrary forces are interconnected and interdependent in the natural world, and how they give rise to each other in turn. Many natural dualities — e.g. dark and light, female and male, low and high, cold and hot — are thought of as manifestations of yin and yang, respectively (from Wikipedia, obviously).

but.... not many who knows what it's connection to a human, as an individual. a friend once told me, which i believed is so true that i loved this symbol so much, is that;

as good as a person can be, there will definitely be a dark side of him / her. even a tiny drop of darkness, (which presented by the white portion contains the black seed). and as bad as a person can be, there will be a goodness in him/her, although just a small part (which presented by the black contains the white seed). it's make human, a human. nobody's perfect.

 

so.... don't just judge a book by its cover. 

4th shawwal, back to kuching. raya this year was great! i didn't realize how much i missed my kampung. my whole body still aching with my skin which burnt cause by the long boat ride. just imagine, almost 4 hours! it burnt me like never before. well, next year i probably won't go back, yet again. i miss my kampung already..... 

see..... my kampung is where the skies are as blue as it can be.........................................

and this is why i was burnt like roasted chicken.....

eid-ul-fitry is in the corner. arrived in kuching yesterday afternoon and this morning, drove to sarikei. will be heading to my kampung tomorrow. it's almost 3 years since the last time i was there.... and it felt good to be back to my root. you know. so that everything else make sense.

going back is quite a journey itself. from kuching to sarikei, it's almost 5 hours driving. thereafter, need to use ferry or boat for around 4 hours. the kampung itself actually in an isolated island. an island within an island. it also is located at the end of rejang river. a few of my families & relatives still live there, but most has already migrated to the big city.

growing up is the most interesting thing in my life. if only i can turn back time, i definitely would. i would never ask for anything else. but, since my mother's passing, it somewhere i don't want to be. it's break me at times. nonetheless, it's somewhere i want to be if i want to get rid of everything else in my life.

will be offline for a few days. i didn't bring my laptop with me & my current handphone doesn't allow streaming in it. sigh~

anyway..........

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN