as i strolled down the pavement at pbd (pusat bandar damansara), i walked past a guy with red t-shirt and a big words written on if. and the words are;
what if...
as if some kind of magical power tries to communicate to me. i know... it's not possible. and it's kind of crazy thing to imagine. well, the thing is, this words came crossing at me and makes me started to think of all those "what if"s that, i believe, all of us thought of, if things have had happened the other way round. you know, things like if we took that road instead of this or things that we supposed to say, but left unsaid. and yes, it is a sad words to say. what if...
people says or maybe some quotes "instead of just saying it, why didn't we just do it? that way, we will know what would happen". it's easy to say, but it's kind of complicated. duh.. there's choices to be made in life. we can't just do two things once. says, if someone would have asked you to marry him, you need to choose between saying "yes" or "no". if you say "yes" maybe you will end up happily ever after or maybe being a divorcee a few years from now and you need to seek sympathy from those around you just to feed your child. but if you say "no", maybe you'll end up "not married" and stay single for the rest of your life and all alone. scary huh? indeed.
if you asked me what's my "what if"s are, it'll be plenty. i do not know whether i regretted making those choices or just simply wondering if all was done differently. my list of "what if"s.............
- what if i chosen the islamic school instead? would i have been a better person than my own self today? probably now i am some kind of do-gooder to spread the word of religion... ehmmm???
- what if i stayed at that school? we should have been an item. me with that cute guy have some kind of 2 mths relationship, until i left. and probably, if i haven't left, i have been married to him already and being a mother to all his children.
- what if i took accountancy or hotel management instead of taking engineering? i would've been a great hotel manager :p that would've been nice.
- what if i turn down the offer for my first job? and not hanging on it for too long, i would have been working with some other firm which is better and more professional.
- what if i just treat them nicely, without ignorance? i would have been having friends instead of enemies.
- and what if........................
and the list goes on. but my biggest WHAT IF is......
WHAT IF I TELL HIM THAT I LOVE HIM?
